Would the legal market be any less unkind today? One day (full disclosure: it may take decades), I think that you'll look back at that time without regret. A hard lesson about love and "growing up," is learning the risks of it all.
I am thinking back to this time of year three years ago. I was standing in my parent's drive way with a boy I had spent nearly two years in varying degrees of romantic relations. In a few days, I would leave for graduate school in London, and I threw down my ultimatum. I wanted to "stay together." The answer I got? "No, I've never really had feelings for you." I didn't want to believe him, but just a week later, as I was sitting alone in my new London flat, I saw the photos of him and his new girlfriend. These were the days of facebook gifts: the little cartoon hearts, cats, and flowers flooded my news, making the reality of the situation inescapable. I really did mean nothing to him.
And luckily, I was an ocean and a continent away and proceeded a dream year in my favorite city in the world. Sometimes I think about what if that conversation had panned out differently. What if he did return my feelings? I'm not sure that I would have had the courage to go.
So, you may be thinking now- I have no London to distract me. Not even a job to give me something new to complain about. But, you will sometime soon and from here on out, every new guy who happens to momentarily tame our hearts, we get to think: "Are you as good as a year in London?" or "Are you worth the suffering of lost momentum and professional opportunity?"
I can say with confidence, you are at the very least -- that much wiser.
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